He drowned at around 4 that day. I told my mom he couldn’t be dead because I made him dinner. I was in shock. I will always believe that I may be a little on the crazy side but my intentions are good and my heart is in the right place shirt Besides,I will do this chill I got that day was his warmth leaving my life. Our parents came to pick me up, and we notified my other siblings. It was so hard. I went back to my parents’ house so I could be there for them and all that the next morning would bring. I laid on the couch and tossed and turned, unable to sleep. I finally was able to get about 30 minutes but woke up crying and screaming. I rolled over and there, on my pillow, was a beautiful ladybug. He kept his promise. Ladybugs have been a big part of my life in the time since then, as one inevitability comes to me when I would need my beloved brother the most. The day he was buried one landed on my hand. The day our dad died, two were in my car. When I got married one flew in my hair and the day my precious daughter was born there was one inside the hospital delivery room.